careena ur dead

2day is a sunday...supposingly is a happy day for everyone...for me..im not at all..i would choose to stay in kampar..in my own intimate room..do u noe how cozy it is in ur own room..u can escape from stress from sadness from the things tat u supposed to face....i do hope i can cry out loud...in epo..again n again i think of my ex...BENG SOON!evryday do think of him..but cant say it out...duno hu to tell....i stood at salam the mamak....again i reminisced those days we were together...yea....jz now i received a call from my mates..they interviewed me by askin me a few ques...how u do u define love?for me LOVE is sumthin beautiful wen i was young..now NO MORE....love?i get love?ya family love...frenz love?love is sumthin which u cant guarantee...love is sumthin which u cant grabhold with...it will go....its jz a glimpse second...do u noe i hate to be alone?do u noe im a person hu really really nids care n hugs....but the truth is i dun hv...i hv to face it...n face it with boldness....the road is getting tougher..i will walk it with the courage which i hv now...MR LIONEL said tat my performance hv dropped...how sad wen i heard tat?i was totally startled...y?y?i nid to ask myself why?i hav to remain 3pointers and above...i HAVE TO...lots in my mind rite now....i hav to sort it out one by one....a lottt....uncountable..i will keep his word in my mind....MOVE ON...dear dear no matter how hard i will MOVE ON....I WILL...I PROMISE..I WONT DISTURB U....hope everythin goes well wif ur carrier n ur relationship wif ur gf!GOD BLESS U....take care will be missing u...is alwiz hard to find sumwan u really love...LIKE?LOVE A PERSON comprises a lot of things....do hope couples will cherish one another....compromise wif each other....there is alwiz a solution...if GOD does give me a chance to bk wif him,..I WILL SAY YES...i will run after him n gif him my deepest hug saying...DEAR I LOVE U..I WONT LET U GO...

im just hu m i...

im not superwoman...im not tough till as the concrete walls...im a humanbeing..!though im not as cute as gurls in my uni .IM A LADY IM A LADY

heheeh

2day is a v special day to me.....sometimes althou both couples look simple but their love impress me....their eyes...their tender care ...they r like in t...their own world...how do i hope hv a digi camera...take down every moment they hv now....the most important is the v moment now...they ...lovingly chatting...althou the gal kinda long-winded but he guy still listen to her...this really impress me......wen i c them happy....automatically i feel the elation in me...theeir smile..their laughter filled the air....can we take a photo?frenzz i LOVE YOU...HOPE BOTH OF U DO CHERISH EACH OTHER TILL U LEAVE UTAR.....CHERISH EACH OTHER TILL THE VVVV MOMENT....Muaksss

suddenly..

suddenly wen i was listening to Kenny G songs, my ex pops into my mind...tell the vvvvvvvv truth Careena still think of her ex...everyday he is already in his mind...his gf now bz with assignments....at his gf has sumwan to lean on...for me?hu do i lean on?his shoulders?can i just say Dear can u lend me jz 4 a while?hhaahahahaha nonsense.....im actually now doin my assignments but in really out of ideas...totally lost....he is probably now chatting wif his gf....hugging each other....

my heart stops...

2day i visited hongleong....i felt kinda heavy-hearted...i miss him at the same time i felt scared wen i visit him....but the moment i saw him...i happy worr at the same time i felt reluctant to say gudbye....bye Mr Liew...i miss him...do u noe how much i hope to get close to him...to really take care for him...b the one hu cares for him at all times....but i dun get a chance...maybe i dun deserve gua..i tot of telling him i LIKE YOU...but i dun dare to I DUN DARE AHH...M I A COWARD?I DUN HVE The guts to approach him.....i felt heartache wen i visited him but all i can do is to smile to him...make fun,.....make sum jokes....wen actually the inner me i dun feel tat....CAN I TAKE CARE OF YOU?CAN I DO JZ SUMTHIN FOR YOU?CAN.??nway i will support him all the time..ya all the time...luckily i have a bunch of mates here supporting me all the time esp in down moments,...thanks JENNY....thanks....i feel myself like strengthless.....i barely able to stand for myself sumtimes....lots in UTAR tot im a tough tough galll...i do nid love..i nid sumwan to love me...to say DARLING CAN I HUG U?i miss him lorr....im tired lahh...no mood ....2mrw got class...i cant disappointed my lecturers..my tutors...im scared but at the same time i dun wan to skip clas...buti dun have the power to stand up.....can sumwan lift me up?mid term ahh?????????CAREENA U SUCKS LAHHH..........U R A REAL LOSER.......YYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

haihzzz another day

again another day...today is sunday.....tomorrow is monday......again a new day..time flies...yea...time flies....we r aging yea...worries are piling...worries are accumulating according to our age...how do i hope happy moments can jz be there......happy moments....for me is countable...but for sum is uncountable...maybe it all depends on individuals..how u look at ur life now and in future....do u noe how much i nid a person to take care of me...to lead me in times of troubles...i nid sumwan whom i can share my feelings to....im so tired recently...duno y it seems everythin jz chasing after me like a roaring lion....gosh..im jz a tiny ant..wat can i do?i kip on telling myself to b tough ...to b strong enuf...to b tenacious enuf in handling stuff....im trying to...im doing my best..ya....im in e process...but im too a humanbeing...im not ironman...im not superwoman .....come on....actually i fall in love wif a guy..but again i fail....yeah..i FAIL.....but i do tell myself one thing......nothin can eva disturb my studies n my position as the vicechair in uni....I HAVE MY OWN PRINCIPAL...tats me....i have my own limitations....my own boundaries,,,im not any gals whom mingling around.....im a simple yet complicated person...i noe wat m i doin....i wan to achieve well in my studies...n oso doin well in skul activities as well....im not anybody but i will b sumbody in future,..i kip my words...YA CAREENA YEOH DOES KIP HER WORDS...SHE CAN DO IT....SHE WILL GO FOR ANY CHANCES WHICH COMES HER WAY...SHE WILL GRAB ANY GOLDEN OPPORTUNITIES .........CAREENA U MZ BE MORE TOUGH......STANDS UP......FACE THE WORLD ...FACE THE REALITY..NO DAY DREAMING...

im dead

im damn fuckin bz nowadays....busy till i dun hv time to even tik a deep breath....im tired....i dun noe hu to tok to....i duno ahh...im vvv tired...im now the vice chairperson in Utar...i nid to handle lots....my fren met an accident...im vvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvv worry abt him...but i cant do anythin..now we r planning to hold donations in Utar..wah...hav to write letter to PROFESSOR CHUAH.....pls approve us..pls.i BEG U.....I BEG U....i miss u....I MIS HIS MESSAGE...I MIS HIS LAUGHTER...I MISS HIS JOKES...now i dun have anyone whom i can tok to..i hav assignments all around,....pilling up like mountain.....i barely able to breathe...i nid sum respiration.....i NID air....i have lots in my mind....lots....lotsssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh IM DEAD LAHHH....