my life

i jz duno wats in my mind......im now in a mess..i duno wat m i doin..its absolutely not me....its a total different me......im dead..im useless..im nobody but jz a trash in a gabbage bin.....wat can i do to eva find myself back?i cant.,....im lost in the bewilderness....i cant find my way out...the world seems to be rotating....ppl seems to be more perplexing...they are fuckers...they are deceivers...they are untrustable....why cant sumwan jz care for me seriously without any rewards.....i dun wan ...i dun urrs...i dunwan ur touch ...i dun wan ur hug........im not yours.......no rumours....no pointing fingers on anyone.....go away from me.....let go careena....its not me...its not me...im devastated...im now in a depleted energy state....charge me.....i dun think so....im totally down.........my level of CAREENA ME...is totally lost in wonder....hahahhah...so implicit rite?im an asshole.....Careena is a bitch....i bitch around....haaahh my life?u wan ur life to be the top bitch in the world....argh its so pathetic.......there is no longer me....i feel calling back my ex telling him.........im so insecure now..i feel like dying...hang myself at the corner of sumwhere....i cant my way out...its seems im being enshrouded by the mist ....the anxiety mist...the horrifying mist.....i have been strangled myself till death......im perish ladies n gentlemen...wat the fuck is tat?wat m i trying to convey...this is the condition im facing now......