Tuesday, October 13, 2009

THE startled me....the emptyness in me....look into me

LOOK into me...look into my eyes....HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO U.....HAPPY BIRTHDAY....congrats,,,,,.wateva victories in life.....wateva glamorous life u have been thru....can u eva take it to the day u perish?Life?A smile will brightens ur day...really?a drop of tears can flood the whole nation?sounds implicit?ya tats wat im thinkin now...its weird...but the world is indeed weird n hilarious....everyone was laughin at one another till today...everyone is wearing a mask....we are wearing masks with different colours...different patterns.....different sizes...but eventually we will meet at one deep dark damp place tats is the casket..under the ground...wen u look bak....worth?WORTH?laughter can brightens the day.....smile can cheer up ur gloomy day.....a drop of tear can save the world......A penny can save u from hunger......wen the entire globe no longer rotating......wen there is no longer breath ......there is no longer oxygen......i duno wat m i writing...but tats wat im thinkin rite now...its sounds kinda perplexing.....nut it does make sense...wen u eva reach tat predicament where u face speechless state...unconscious state....this is the time where u gona suffocating in pain..u desperate for more.....for wat...u duno....u jz wan something...but u duno wat u want??????u r lost..u nid a hand to hold....u nid a shoulder to lean>REALLY?i saw her.....iM SADDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD...my heart cries....my tears rolling...but barely able to roll down to my cheeks.....she crumbles..but she nvr let herself tumble jz like tat....HOLD HER.....hold her tightly....she nid help.,....mentally...I RESPECT YOU....YOU ARE MY WOMAN....Salute......thousands Salutessss.....MIsss...u r in my heart....again thanks.ss....but till now ur student still cant find her way out...she doesnt noe her way..her path...she jz walk....run to the v end....where is the end?I duno....i will keep on running....everone can be as strong as iron....but how long can we be tat tenacious?walk into a dark room...u touch nothin,,u see nothin.....u hear nothin.....u taste nothin...u yell for nothin...u cryyyyyyyyyyyyyyy n cryyyyyyyyyyyyyyy...PLSSSSSSSSSS PLSSSSSSSSSSSS HELPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP HELPPPPPPPPPPP.....but in vain.....no one....NO ONEEEEEEEE......u sing to urself....u started to think ..think of wat?think of ur petite mum?think of ur handsome dad>?ur siblings?ur bf?ur hubby?ur mates?urself?FOR ME...I WILL KEEP ON CRYING...CRY TILL I HAV NO MORE TEARS....my tears have drained out....no more....can i hav more tears....???Look into my eyes...u can c tears rolling...all humanbeing they hv flaws....they are weak ....look into my eyes...

ya im kinda sad to hear that...

wat is life?how many ppl can define the real exact meaning of life?how many years they hav been thru in their whole life time?how old are you nw?go around and ask how old r them?wat they hav been thru......wat is LIFE?i hav been harping on the same old ques....WAT HAV U BEEN THRU?Careena wat hav u been thru?do i really cherish the ppl around me?My family members?my frenz?if i really diagnose with sum disease.....what m i goin to do the next few steps?wat m i goin to go in days to come?m i goin to jz waste my time jz like tat?for me now....if there is really tat occurrence,....I will do sth which i think its important....i will confront my love....saying I LOVE YOU...i will too confront those mates whom i dislike...telling them IM SORRY FRENZ.....I LOVE U GUYS....pls forgive me....duno wats in my mind.... .im now cant think of anything...jz empty....is tat i can do?im damn useles....today wen i saw her the frail look.....from far......tat v moment she was right infront of me.....she looks far more than i hav expected......she was once a very gorgeous lady to me.....now she is totally different......teacher can I gif u a hug?thanks for everything...i will do well in my course....i wont disheartened u....miss.....take care Miss.....thanks .THANKSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

Sunday, October 11, 2009

yesterday....

yesterday i went clubbing with kar mun n her bf.....nt the right place for me...i dun really like it cz of the ppl there...i prefer Barbeza n Houz......she recommended me a guy.....i dun like this kind of guy...same goes to male fren.......he is wealthy...so?he is ambitious so?he is wateva lahh....non of my fuckin business.....i dun gif a damn.......i dun hv any feelings towards anyone thou..........they r .......HORRIBLE.....wateva lahh.....its better for me to focus more in my studies....how i hope one day i can hav my own design house,......my ideal house.....wau.........MAN?HAHAHAAHAH THEY ARE HORRIBLE....u cant find sumwan hu is trustable.....they seem to take women for granted...what u guys wan?SEX?LUST......................FUCK OFF.BYE TO MEN.....WOMEN.U NID TO STAND FOR URSELF...NOT DEPENDANT...BUT INDEPENDANT......LADIES.......

Thursday, October 8, 2009

i finally got Shahanaaz Habib in facebook...happy lehh

i finally got my admirer......she is the one....she is well known notable reporter who represented Malaysia to Gaza .........n she was the one who had a conversation with Obama,,,.....she is really capable.....undescribable words......she is immanent....she is my goal......yea....but im still hesitating regarding her success...still wan to noe more....but of course prac makes perfect.....is hardly for me to noe her more...but at least i get a chance to get a bit closer to her....yESSSSS!

Wednesday, October 7, 2009

i noe we wont be bk 2gether.....miss him...

2day....or maybe these few years...everyday still missing him he is still in my mind...our memories still in my mind...hardly for me to forget him...dear....if there is IF...I WOULD CHOOSE TO HV U IN MY LIFE ......TO BE MY BACKUP AS WAT U SAID.....dear dear i miss u...how i hope i can hug u....massage u....now ?haahahha u already hav one now....the one hu alwiz be there for u....take care of u....tell u wat....im now not attached to anyone....they are not even my cup of tea......its difficult to find the one hu knows me well.....hu noes wat m i thinkin....too bad.....I dun think im tat bad...i would like to say im better than the other gurls....but no worries ...now i have my vision...my dreams.....i havent even achieved...no worries........i will prove to u i will move on.....move on in my carrier in future....we wont be meeting each other maybe foreva...maybe few years...but u r alwiz in me....Careena will nvr forget u......U R A MAN to me....hugging my baby bolster is like hugging u......everynite....feel like hugging u....hug u tight tight.....miss u so much,.....bless u ...ur carrier...ur gf....ur family....take care....Dear I LOVE YOU......thou u r now my ex....but ur special to me foreva.......LOVE U SO MUCH......

Tuesday, October 6, 2009

pissed off,.....

i dun expect ppl to say thank you bt at least u appreciate with a true heart....i bought you a cake...at least u hav a taste of it....I believed its not tat bad..till like u felt like spitting it out....not everyone as lavish as you....think about it....for me..i will be v happy cz how i hope there is sumwan bought me a surprise cake.....the world is round.......the globe is rotating.....we cant predict wat wil happen in future...we duno whether we hav the chance to even savour the taste of a piece of so called NOT BRANDED YEOLDE cake....thou its not indulgence..thou its not Marias..thou its not Citrus....its jz a normal piece of mango cake......if u wan....fo mix with wealthy affluent mates where they can buy u GUCCI PRADA FENDI LV BURBERRY...all those fuck up things.....hu doesnt wan tat?TELL ME...I WAN TAT TOO...but i cant expect ppl to treat me to notable luxurious restaurant.......it means u guys dont noe me well......i kip myself quiet cz im speechless.....u want....GET IT FROM UR BF den....or u get it all by ur own naked hands.....be real....be true.......u guys r fortunate enuf.....try to compare wif other ppl.....hu bag for fud......hu crave for a drop of water...they r much more pathetic..........u guys wan nice car rite?u guys wan luxurious party rite?go get it...but im not goin to involve....i hav my life....i hav lots to achieve......

Monday, October 5, 2009

thinking

im still thinkin how to actually make a club a successful wan?how?wat can i do?who m i to seek advice?i nid to do sumthin the nex sem...no time to waste/......we cant procrastinate our tasks anymore.....things have to be settled in a fast pace...haih the time wont b waiting us....we nid to chase after time.....come on....im now lacking of ideas...shit....my ideal society?gender equality society....i nid to assemble all chairs from all societies....this gona be a big meeting.....hahha....not fun at all....sumtimes we nid to have our determination to be crave in us inexorably........nvr give up...nvr give in to anything...any obstacles....but there r strategies rite.....wat kind of strategies.....how to move ......steps which is efficient n apt.....haih....now we have to commit ourselves into the session of brainstorming....haih....we cant let anyone to impoverish our society...i cant let it jz fall....we nid concrete ideas..to actually build a strong building....n i nid my subordinates to work together with me n Edward.....i cant let the seniors to despise us........no...NO NEVER.....dun eva underestimate us.....we r beyond wat u guys think......look into our eyes....our eyes will be ur answer.......dun eva destruct our confidence.........get off....

Thursday, October 1, 2009

will try

wat to try?try to be a lady...a lady whom ppl will admire.....i want ppl to admire me not my beauty..but my brilliance....my skills....i have a vision....do hope one day i can sit with the TAN SERIsss...our country's leaders...tok with them...to be frenz with them....but how?i noe the only thing which can assist me tat is my studies......CAREENNAAAAAAAAAAA U MUST DO IT.....U WAN ...U GO FOR IT......DUIN WAIT...DUN PROCRASTINATE UT STUFF......U CAN BE AN ACHIEVER ONE DAY...CLIMB THE HIGHEST MOUNTAIN......WATEVA U HAVE NOW IS NOT IMPORTANT ANYMORE..UR FUTURE...RUN RUN RUN RUN...RIN THE RACE...B THE VICTOR NOT THE LOSER.........U HAV LOTS TO ACHIEVE.....GO.....DUN WASTE TIME...

wats so hapi about?

shit i have three wiks holidays....gosh i have to face my lovely mum for three wiks...how i hope to jz hv three days holidays rather than three wiks..tats damn long....i dislike having long holidays unless i have sumthin more meaningful to do like travelling....but where can i go?i dun feel like goin anywhere..staying at home?NOPE...PENANG?NOPE....KL?NOPE....esp Pavillion///.....lagi teruk....all those sad memories jz floating by.....yesterday i had tea time wif kar mun n kenneth...he has given me several advices regarding BGF thingy....life seems to be drown in the cyber world..where relationship also in the trading ground where there is mutual benefits..wtf....is tat deemed as LOVE?no more.....y cant we treat love as something soothing...somethin cozy.....for me now..at this very moment...i feel love is jz sth very simple....well....wat it means?i duno how ppl think abt love?for me....its no longer like the olden days love..where there is true love...now....hahaha think about it ladies n gentlemen....men crave for SEX...women crave for WEALTH......i do hope i have sumwan hu can care for me........believe in HIM....HE shall bring u miracles......TRUST...THE ONLY PERSON WHOM I CAN TRUST....jz like to share one thing......do hope i can be a diplomat one day..its hard..but nth is ez in this world....I CAN DO IT.......THIS SEM CANT....WILL TRY THE NEX SEM....ENHANCE UR LEVEL OF LANGUAGE........U MUST....ITS A MUST....DUN EVA GIVE UP...im not born n bred in an affluent family ....where i can spend lavishly....but i believe one day i can have tat..have wat i want....CAREENA YEOH....nothing impossible