speechless

these few days i dun feel like saying anythin...duno y?i have nothin in my mind..in bad mood?NOPE..in gud mood?nope....i gain weight dy...kinda no mood lahh...tot of controlling myself but y ?i kip on eating. ..i hate myself...i hate being FAT...like a fat ass pig....Fxxx..haih no mood lahh/.....i dun hv any self determination...i dun hav self control..it makes me feel so sad disappointed wif myself...ya....small matters oso cant handle....im ...SPEECHLESS...anyway i have to tell myself...i wan to implant this attitude in me tat is to b self determination...control myself...ya...IN STUDIES..U MZ DO IT WELL...IN DIETwise too i hav to control...SURE U CAN DO IT...