these few days

ya verbally we both miss each other but duno whether its true or not...i jz dun wan to noe.....guys use to lie...they r deceiver....not sayin im being bias but its true...im not tryin to fabricate the truth but it lies in the beholder's eyes....i dun wan again get hurt.....im enuf of all these....we r frenz n yet i feel sad....come on careena pls wake up.....its time u hav to stand up...to do sth for urself.....maybe sumtimes we r not meant together....i duno...im lost...i miss him but at the same time im lost...im totally in ambivalence....i think of him all the time...izit bcz i like him?i m scared...im reallyyyyyyyyyyyyyy scared.....its in the paranormal situation.....its beyond words.....i duno hu to tok to...i duno wat mi now....which condition im in now....m i.......pls...if u really lie to me...tell me....stop tat...we should stop.....plsssssssssssssss....let me gooooo!im suffocating....i try to gasp for air.....careena is dying...my soul die.......subsequently it nids time to recover....rejuvenate my soul ...canm sumwan jz lend me their shoulders.....i will pretty appreciate....in this world there will be no true love....hahhaha....its not a joke...its true....sumtimes i pretty envy my frenz...not in a negative way....at least their bf not lie to them....they r true to each other...ex: jenny n alvin.....so good....charmaine n barry...they r true....ME?ME????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????