there wont be an old one but a new one...

i notice one thing in life..thou it might not be the most crucial one but least its sth which u can bring you far far from wat u expected...i wont be the old one but a woman with dignity, with bountiful knowledge, with the knowledge i have in me,,,read more, enhance more on knowledge, it will definitely brace urself for a better future. as woman, we should be well informed, do not easily sway by the environment. NO....i should stand up no matter how tired i m...how lethargic i m today ..i should not jz give up...i noe i nid more exercise in order to uplift myself in all ways but it will nvr too late..NVR...NVR....CAREENA YEOH WILL NVR GIVE UP HER DREAMS...I AHVE MY VISION...A WOMAN WITH DIGNITY....TO CREATE AN IMPACT TO THE WORLD..I NOE ONE DAY I WILL BE ON TOP OF THE WORLD.I WANT TO BE ONE....i do noe in order to gain ppl's respect first u nid to respect him or her first.but certainly there are limitations...dun walk over mine...remember my words....tx...but do remember one thing Careena, do ur best in wateva u r doin and too in future...BE UNIQUE AND BE THE BEST

careena is here

everyday it seems im here...time flies...its almost the end of the sem..a new start..finals coming...but still im blur...im still dreaming rite now...writing here...doin what..what im thinkin is actually what im writing...whining will make you better..crying will make you better...or maybe a smile will make u better....there is an idiom tat goes...a smile will definitely better a cry...y not you choose to smile....whenever you want to do..you expect urself to do the best, top of the world...can I be the top of the world.???but how?top of everything....tell you what?beng soon's photo is on my desktop wallpaper...whenever i c him, feel sad, feel hurt..at the same time feel happy....dear dear ahh, do hope you will spend every minute with me,,,hugging me every nite, still remember we hugging each other to lalaland..tat land only belongs to us..dear dear I love you still...I miss you much still, but u hav forgotten me, have you?dear dear, tell you what?i do hope one day i can bump into you, seeing you will be the greatest gift eva...but i noe its God's arrangement, if He wants us to meet, definitely will but can I ask God..when???how many years to go??dear dear can i hug you?jz a hug tats more than enuf?but trust me Careena nvr give up..she still moving on ...i will study..i will do my best not try my best...nvr try but do it the best ..dear you too..ok...take more rest...I LOVE YOU...vvvv much..dear dear...missing you right now...wishing u merry merry xmas in adv...and happy new year...love you

careena's soul is not there...

to search ur inner self..will be v hard but once u had found it it will nvr be that hard anymore.....these few days duno y im v not myself...meaning your soul is not there, it was like struck by lightning, it has been pulled away by the swirl wind.the rushing wind seems like chasing after telling me to move but i wan totally glued on ground, dumbfounded with empty rooms in my head, the owner knocking on ur door without any further notice. the notice is a highlight to you telling you to move, telling you is time to make a move. it seems im still in my world of dream, dreams which are nasty and ludicrous. i have no idea what m i writing but in certain i noe hu mi n wat shud i do. I lack of motivation, the boost is not there anymore..listening to songs make you indulge more but at the same time it helps to keep awake ...Careena u shud wake up,,,set the alarm clock , wake u up mentally....thinkin bk the case between mee fon and ah tat, i suddenly think of me n beng. dear ahh, i noe i shud give up you, letting you go is letting my soul flies without comin back. if i were to continue to think of this, i wil nvr recover from the hurts.i will continue to walk deeper till one day, i will get myself even hurt than b4. i noe how to consult ppl but me myself, i hav no idea. as whta people say, its easy to heal others but not to urself..i almost dead....help me...im crying for help.,..thinkin of him is like killing my soul, soulless human being....hanging urself under the torture of hell...

careena is awake again...

she awakens me...her words awakens me through half an hour chat ...tx mei kwan...tx for ur encouragement...tx for ur support..I will learn...i wont not be tat easy give up//....give up will not exist in my dictionary....i will move on to chase more sales....ok!Careena can do it...She can achieve the targets..i can get komisen from those forms..within these few days...i have no worries but to hav the confidence in me..this is a sure....I cant just continue with what im now having...i have to live a better life now and future...i have to start planning my future now or else it will be a havoc in future...Careena u have to move with ur own hands...move with ur own limbs...to create the impossible...make things possible for urself and the society..no giving up....if you were to stop there...u waill fail tremendously....no thinking unnecessary stuff but think something which worth you thinkin it...MOVE ON

today...

today i hav not done any sales..my boss keep on pouring us with the same infos....tomorrow will be better rite....aiming a better goal....to hav sales is not easy, to convince and to persuade is something hard but it can be taken as a challenge...challenge me den....cool

im awake

im alwiz awake but tonight im fully in a conscious state where i noe where my stand is....my determination speaks to me saying im no longer living in impoverish condition especially in wanting what I wanted to achieve...no longer i have to live the same life...i have to figure some to jump out from this place...they enrol in notable university abroad where i stay in this fucking uni of mine where ppl barely noe where it is located....but all ppl noe is a chinese edu uni which comprises all unwanted students./...im pretty dissappointed with the surroundings around me...i have to be extra capable in order for me to escape from this predicament.....Careena....tell yourself u have to be vvvvvvvvvvv focus in ur future and ur studies no matter how hard the situation is...u can see with ur own naked eyes where ur mates are enrolling one by one to overseas uni where u hav nil chance...NO STARING BUT TO WORK HARD TO GO FOR IT....Careena U r Careena unlike others..Family is no longer my main priority...my future and studies will be my forefront priority.....no one will spare one for me...spare a better life for me...i will earn it by myself...NO BENG SOON IN MY LIFE...NO RELATIONSHIP IN MY LIFE......I WANT MYSLEF N MY FUTURE.....WHOEVER BLOCKS MY WAY SHALL BE GIVEN NO WAY....HE OR SHE SHALL NOT DISTURB ME NOR IMPEDE MY WAY TO SUCCESS

im alone...im all alone...

ladies are not as tough as what poeple think we are....I AM surfacely..but im lonely all times...no one noes ....actually a woman needs someone to love her..to care for her...to be by her side to pamper her at times...u can be weak by his side...but now he was no longer there...he is not there...i might be laughing..i might be smiling...but actually the smile doesnt make any sense to me...im alone....when can i truly forget him??when can i truly happy?when i truly be myself?i do not want anyone to hurt me anyone....its real hard for me to find sumwan whom i love...though i TRUST GOD that one day HE will grant me one...who is loyal and mature...who will be the one?when will he appear?when will be there for me each time i cry..each time i laugh..each time i nid sumwan to tok to...im alone...wat to do..life still need to go on..i still nid to stand up and work things out..i still nid to run out of this muddy pole...im a lady..im not a super duper lady....but anyway Careena will alwiz be tenacious...be sturdy,,,n be tough....but it seems today does not seem a good day to me...