stresssssssss.......

im stress.......im fucking stress....i have lots to do n yet im sick....im fucking sick recently,...i nid to hav a cigarette to boost my day but unfortunately i cant smoke tat much....fuck shit man....i have lots of things to do...i duno which one to start with fuckin shit man....oh gosh...GOD save me..im dead..my soul no longer been saved....shit......im tired...im tired,,..im fucking tired...

again down...

duno wen can i be invigorated?wen can i be charged wif energy?Careena Yeoh if u continue to be a dead corpse...its really useless n meaningless to live a life like this...its kinda disgruntled to c my life like this..its like a person sailing without direction....im disappointed....im sad...sumtimes jz feel like finding frenz to tok with but in vain...they r all pretty occupied...me too bz is jz tat im again restless....im not finding myself....im pretty restless...my energy is utterly depleted....CAN I CALL FOR HELP?CAN I JZ YELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL?oh my gosh...im pretty restless....again...n again.....open up my book...wat i c?wat i feel?i c nothin?i c sumthin?tat is ZZZZZzzzzz...i feel like sleepin...dozing off man....FUCK....fucking useless trash i m....

no mood

2day not in a gud mood...feel like dying....duno hu to tok to...feel like sleeping...feel like yelling......im restless....i hav ate this and that n yet still cant have a relief...duno wats in my mind....all i think now is I RESTLESS...if he is with me now....i believe i will be better..i miss my ex..everytime i miss him damn much...i miss him.....i feel like telling him...dear dear i no mood ahhh...can u come to me n hug me....can i msg u telling you i miss you.....dear ahh..these few days stress....tat internal implicit speechless stress is indeed unspeakable....unspeakable tension in me really makes me NO SMILE....happy?NO...feel like drinking till i can disgorge everything out from me....dear tell you what?i saw ur new profile picture in FB ahh...u r handsome...thumbs up for tat!keep it up..do hope u can take gud care of urself......take gud care of ur current gf........God bless ur carrier n ur family as well...love you everyday.....lov you

u will nvr forget....

in these few weeks of holidays.....at home....u will start to think of him again...all these while he is there in ur mind...sometimes Karen did tell my sis saying that is hard to forget the guy....hard to let go him....wat to do?u have to forget him or else u urself will get more hurt everyday,...u r the victim....he is njoying himself....he has the other half...HOW ABOUT YOU?u still have to move on werd...CRY....PAIN...but hu noes?u learn from ur pain....u dry ur tears...u cry again...u dry ur tears .....dont u feel tired?YA I RELUCTANT TO LET HIM GO...BUT WAT TO DO?WAT CAN I DO?there were so many passers- by.......still u r not vigilant...still u r blur.....still u r unconscious....no Man on earth is good.....there r ???????hu can giv me an exact answer to describe them? How oain u r...u still have to move on cz U R LADY...;LADY OF DISTINCTION.....U CANT FALL..U REMEMBER WAT U HAVE PROMISE URSELF......CAREENA MOVE ON.....I NOE U STILL LOVE HIM BUT U STILL U HAVE TO MOVE ON...ALWIZ REMEMBER U R A SPECIAL ONE....Leave it to GOD.....

believe...

dun u believe love at first sight....sum gurls thye might believe true love...but for me it doesnt really exist...maybe she has the chance to hav that v chance.I MISS OSCAR...this is my true words....evrytime wen i look into his facebook...i feel uneasy....again I FAIL ....IGNORE? .he thinks that he doesnt ignore me..but to me...YES...but can i do?wat u believe then?do u believe in guys promises?hahaah WAT THE FUCK,....DUN EVA TRUST THEIR WORDS...is ME who is the morone who trusted his words....NO MORE...Y I NID TO BE DECEIVED BY THEM...M I EASILY BEING DECEIVED BY PPL ESP MY FEEINGS...im a human being...im not a Robot...im not a machine...im a lady as well...wat u guys think?i cant bear this anymore...wen it comes to moments of silence ...i will start to think unnecessary stuff...I LOVE My ex..I miss Os...i thought i really can hav a person who cares for me....now...HAAHAHHAHA...NOTHIN...I GAIN NOTHIN...BUT A SENSE OF IGNORANCE...FROM HIM...WAT HAV I DONE WRONG..HAV I DONE SUMTHIN WHICH IRRITATES YOU?DID I?m i tat bad which scares you away?why i nid to beg you>..yyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.....y cant i hav a chance to say I MISS YOU....y cant i hav a chance to ask WAT HAPPEN TO YOU....WAT HAPPEN TO US BOTH...how i hope time can jz stagnant there....we can both in the room watch movie together....chat together...NOW NO MORE....y GOD gave me so many passer by....GOD my heart is in pain....DO U NOE THAT?I SAW my ex's gf....I saw Os FB...ENUF....................I CAN PRETEND NOTHIN HAPPEN....but pls consider that IM A HUMANBEING...im not an object...COME ON...i can smile laugh all the time...doesnt mean im happy all the time....is not easy to be happy but its easy to be a pretender.....do u believe?hhahah I BELIEVE.....

careena is fresh at this moment.....

moments of sadness seem to fade away....previous notes i hv had premonitions that i will be single for life ...but yesterday all of sudden....Mei mei had an intuition that i will get attached wen i step into the society...wau....at least at this v moment,,im happy...but now hav to go back n study japanese,,,...kinda stressssssssssss...but wat to do...u hav to study...move on with ur life by holding the book of JAPANESE...AIYOOOOOOOOOOO TERUK ...Y ON EARTH U HAV TO CHOOSE JAP...HAHAAHH TAMIL?terk betul...2day i bought a dress...it suits me well....pretty nice....the impeccable beauty in me shines....ahahah....self praise....wtf....anyway.....the world is rotating...our mind and soul is charging with the energy....haih....careena MOVE ON...

.......what ten said is rite.....

im obviously looks older than him....he is charming prince of mine but we r maybe not meant together......i will try but with no hope we grab...with no dreams we hope......we have nothin to hope...we nth to dream of...we hv nth to grab...all we can grab is the time.....the time where we can simply jz smile to each other.....to actually jz say how r u?how do u do?i duno wen this thing last....will it last...but in this world nth can be endured...nth where we can actually hold on to....is only our things...our own belongings...study baik baik....obtain wat u urself want,,,tats the most crucial.......remember....reach out to the society...serve the community..obtain gud results....REALLY CAREENA....U MZ REMEMBER UR FUTURE ROAD IS VVVVVVVVVVVV VITAL.....u MZ ACHIEVE.....NO WAN CAN EVA STEAL UR BELONGINGS....NO ONEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE....gain ur respect....but pls remember u mz first respect urself...