u will nvr forget....

in these few weeks of holidays.....at home....u will start to think of him again...all these while he is there in ur mind...sometimes Karen did tell my sis saying that is hard to forget the guy....hard to let go him....wat to do?u have to forget him or else u urself will get more hurt everyday,...u r the victim....he is njoying himself....he has the other half...HOW ABOUT YOU?u still have to move on werd...CRY....PAIN...but hu noes?u learn from ur pain....u dry ur tears...u cry again...u dry ur tears .....dont u feel tired?YA I RELUCTANT TO LET HIM GO...BUT WAT TO DO?WAT CAN I DO?there were so many passers- by.......still u r not vigilant...still u r blur.....still u r unconscious....no Man on earth is good.....there r ???????hu can giv me an exact answer to describe them? How oain u r...u still have to move on cz U R LADY...;LADY OF DISTINCTION.....U CANT FALL..U REMEMBER WAT U HAVE PROMISE URSELF......CAREENA MOVE ON.....I NOE U STILL LOVE HIM BUT U STILL U HAVE TO MOVE ON...ALWIZ REMEMBER U R A SPECIAL ONE....Leave it to GOD.....

believe...

dun u believe love at first sight....sum gurls thye might believe true love...but for me it doesnt really exist...maybe she has the chance to hav that v chance.I MISS OSCAR...this is my true words....evrytime wen i look into his facebook...i feel uneasy....again I FAIL ....IGNORE? .he thinks that he doesnt ignore me..but to me...YES...but can i do?wat u believe then?do u believe in guys promises?hahaah WAT THE FUCK,....DUN EVA TRUST THEIR WORDS...is ME who is the morone who trusted his words....NO MORE...Y I NID TO BE DECEIVED BY THEM...M I EASILY BEING DECEIVED BY PPL ESP MY FEEINGS...im a human being...im not a Robot...im not a machine...im a lady as well...wat u guys think?i cant bear this anymore...wen it comes to moments of silence ...i will start to think unnecessary stuff...I LOVE My ex..I miss Os...i thought i really can hav a person who cares for me....now...HAAHAHHAHA...NOTHIN...I GAIN NOTHIN...BUT A SENSE OF IGNORANCE...FROM HIM...WAT HAV I DONE WRONG..HAV I DONE SUMTHIN WHICH IRRITATES YOU?DID I?m i tat bad which scares you away?why i nid to beg you>..yyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.....y cant i hav a chance to say I MISS YOU....y cant i hav a chance to ask WAT HAPPEN TO YOU....WAT HAPPEN TO US BOTH...how i hope time can jz stagnant there....we can both in the room watch movie together....chat together...NOW NO MORE....y GOD gave me so many passer by....GOD my heart is in pain....DO U NOE THAT?I SAW my ex's gf....I saw Os FB...ENUF....................I CAN PRETEND NOTHIN HAPPEN....but pls consider that IM A HUMANBEING...im not an object...COME ON...i can smile laugh all the time...doesnt mean im happy all the time....is not easy to be happy but its easy to be a pretender.....do u believe?hhahah I BELIEVE.....

careena is fresh at this moment.....

moments of sadness seem to fade away....previous notes i hv had premonitions that i will be single for life ...but yesterday all of sudden....Mei mei had an intuition that i will get attached wen i step into the society...wau....at least at this v moment,,im happy...but now hav to go back n study japanese,,,...kinda stressssssssssss...but wat to do...u hav to study...move on with ur life by holding the book of JAPANESE...AIYOOOOOOOOOOO TERUK ...Y ON EARTH U HAV TO CHOOSE JAP...HAHAAHH TAMIL?terk betul...2day i bought a dress...it suits me well....pretty nice....the impeccable beauty in me shines....ahahah....self praise....wtf....anyway.....the world is rotating...our mind and soul is charging with the energy....haih....careena MOVE ON...

.......what ten said is rite.....

im obviously looks older than him....he is charming prince of mine but we r maybe not meant together......i will try but with no hope we grab...with no dreams we hope......we have nothin to hope...we nth to dream of...we hv nth to grab...all we can grab is the time.....the time where we can simply jz smile to each other.....to actually jz say how r u?how do u do?i duno wen this thing last....will it last...but in this world nth can be endured...nth where we can actually hold on to....is only our things...our own belongings...study baik baik....obtain wat u urself want,,,tats the most crucial.......remember....reach out to the society...serve the community..obtain gud results....REALLY CAREENA....U MZ REMEMBER UR FUTURE ROAD IS VVVVVVVVVVVV VITAL.....u MZ ACHIEVE.....NO WAN CAN EVA STEAL UR BELONGINGS....NO ONEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE....gain ur respect....but pls remember u mz first respect urself...

these few days

ya verbally we both miss each other but duno whether its true or not...i jz dun wan to noe.....guys use to lie...they r deceiver....not sayin im being bias but its true...im not tryin to fabricate the truth but it lies in the beholder's eyes....i dun wan again get hurt.....im enuf of all these....we r frenz n yet i feel sad....come on careena pls wake up.....its time u hav to stand up...to do sth for urself.....maybe sumtimes we r not meant together....i duno...im lost...i miss him but at the same time im lost...im totally in ambivalence....i think of him all the time...izit bcz i like him?i m scared...im reallyyyyyyyyyyyyyy scared.....its in the paranormal situation.....its beyond words.....i duno hu to tok to...i duno wat mi now....which condition im in now....m i.......pls...if u really lie to me...tell me....stop tat...we should stop.....plsssssssssssssss....let me gooooo!im suffocating....i try to gasp for air.....careena is dying...my soul die.......subsequently it nids time to recover....rejuvenate my soul ...canm sumwan jz lend me their shoulders.....i will pretty appreciate....in this world there will be no true love....hahhaha....its not a joke...its true....sumtimes i pretty envy my frenz...not in a negative way....at least their bf not lie to them....they r true to each other...ex: jenny n alvin.....so good....charmaine n barry...they r true....ME?ME????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????

THE startled me....the emptyness in me....look into me

LOOK into me...look into my eyes....HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO U.....HAPPY BIRTHDAY....congrats,,,,,.wateva victories in life.....wateva glamorous life u have been thru....can u eva take it to the day u perish?Life?A smile will brightens ur day...really?a drop of tears can flood the whole nation?sounds implicit?ya tats wat im thinkin now...its weird...but the world is indeed weird n hilarious....everyone was laughin at one another till today...everyone is wearing a mask....we are wearing masks with different colours...different patterns.....different sizes...but eventually we will meet at one deep dark damp place tats is the casket..under the ground...wen u look bak....worth?WORTH?laughter can brightens the day.....smile can cheer up ur gloomy day.....a drop of tear can save the world......A penny can save u from hunger......wen the entire globe no longer rotating......wen there is no longer breath ......there is no longer oxygen......i duno wat m i writing...but tats wat im thinkin rite now...its sounds kinda perplexing.....nut it does make sense...wen u eva reach tat predicament where u face speechless state...unconscious state....this is the time where u gona suffocating in pain..u desperate for more.....for wat...u duno....u jz wan something...but u duno wat u want??????u r lost..u nid a hand to hold....u nid a shoulder to lean>REALLY?i saw her.....iM SADDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD...my heart cries....my tears rolling...but barely able to roll down to my cheeks.....she crumbles..but she nvr let herself tumble jz like tat....HOLD HER.....hold her tightly....she nid help.,....mentally...I RESPECT YOU....YOU ARE MY WOMAN....Salute......thousands Salutessss.....MIsss...u r in my heart....again thanks.ss....but till now ur student still cant find her way out...she doesnt noe her way..her path...she jz walk....run to the v end....where is the end?I duno....i will keep on running....everone can be as strong as iron....but how long can we be tat tenacious?walk into a dark room...u touch nothin,,u see nothin.....u hear nothin.....u taste nothin...u yell for nothin...u cryyyyyyyyyyyyyyy n cryyyyyyyyyyyyyyy...PLSSSSSSSSSS PLSSSSSSSSSSSS HELPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP HELPPPPPPPPPPP.....but in vain.....no one....NO ONEEEEEEEE......u sing to urself....u started to think ..think of wat?think of ur petite mum?think of ur handsome dad>?ur siblings?ur bf?ur hubby?ur mates?urself?FOR ME...I WILL KEEP ON CRYING...CRY TILL I HAV NO MORE TEARS....my tears have drained out....no more....can i hav more tears....???Look into my eyes...u can c tears rolling...all humanbeing they hv flaws....they are weak ....look into my eyes...

ya im kinda sad to hear that...

wat is life?how many ppl can define the real exact meaning of life?how many years they hav been thru in their whole life time?how old are you nw?go around and ask how old r them?wat they hav been thru......wat is LIFE?i hav been harping on the same old ques....WAT HAV U BEEN THRU?Careena wat hav u been thru?do i really cherish the ppl around me?My family members?my frenz?if i really diagnose with sum disease.....what m i goin to do the next few steps?wat m i goin to go in days to come?m i goin to jz waste my time jz like tat?for me now....if there is really tat occurrence,....I will do sth which i think its important....i will confront my love....saying I LOVE YOU...i will too confront those mates whom i dislike...telling them IM SORRY FRENZ.....I LOVE U GUYS....pls forgive me....duno wats in my mind.... .im now cant think of anything...jz empty....is tat i can do?im damn useles....today wen i saw her the frail look.....from far......tat v moment she was right infront of me.....she looks far more than i hav expected......she was once a very gorgeous lady to me.....now she is totally different......teacher can I gif u a hug?thanks for everything...i will do well in my course....i wont disheartened u....miss.....take care Miss.....thanks .THANKSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS