.......what ten said is rite.....

im obviously looks older than him....he is charming prince of mine but we r maybe not meant together......i will try but with no hope we grab...with no dreams we hope......we have nothin to hope...we nth to dream of...we hv nth to grab...all we can grab is the time.....the time where we can simply jz smile to each other.....to actually jz say how r u?how do u do?i duno wen this thing last....will it last...but in this world nth can be endured...nth where we can actually hold on to....is only our things...our own belongings...study baik baik....obtain wat u urself want,,,tats the most crucial.......remember....reach out to the society...serve the community..obtain gud results....REALLY CAREENA....U MZ REMEMBER UR FUTURE ROAD IS VVVVVVVVVVVV VITAL.....u MZ ACHIEVE.....NO WAN CAN EVA STEAL UR BELONGINGS....NO ONEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE....gain ur respect....but pls remember u mz first respect urself...

these few days

ya verbally we both miss each other but duno whether its true or not...i jz dun wan to noe.....guys use to lie...they r deceiver....not sayin im being bias but its true...im not tryin to fabricate the truth but it lies in the beholder's eyes....i dun wan again get hurt.....im enuf of all these....we r frenz n yet i feel sad....come on careena pls wake up.....its time u hav to stand up...to do sth for urself.....maybe sumtimes we r not meant together....i duno...im lost...i miss him but at the same time im lost...im totally in ambivalence....i think of him all the time...izit bcz i like him?i m scared...im reallyyyyyyyyyyyyyy scared.....its in the paranormal situation.....its beyond words.....i duno hu to tok to...i duno wat mi now....which condition im in now....m i.......pls...if u really lie to me...tell me....stop tat...we should stop.....plsssssssssssssss....let me gooooo!im suffocating....i try to gasp for air.....careena is dying...my soul die.......subsequently it nids time to recover....rejuvenate my soul ...canm sumwan jz lend me their shoulders.....i will pretty appreciate....in this world there will be no true love....hahhaha....its not a joke...its true....sumtimes i pretty envy my frenz...not in a negative way....at least their bf not lie to them....they r true to each other...ex: jenny n alvin.....so good....charmaine n barry...they r true....ME?ME????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????

THE startled me....the emptyness in me....look into me

LOOK into me...look into my eyes....HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO U.....HAPPY BIRTHDAY....congrats,,,,,.wateva victories in life.....wateva glamorous life u have been thru....can u eva take it to the day u perish?Life?A smile will brightens ur day...really?a drop of tears can flood the whole nation?sounds implicit?ya tats wat im thinkin now...its weird...but the world is indeed weird n hilarious....everyone was laughin at one another till today...everyone is wearing a mask....we are wearing masks with different colours...different patterns.....different sizes...but eventually we will meet at one deep dark damp place tats is the casket..under the ground...wen u look bak....worth?WORTH?laughter can brightens the day.....smile can cheer up ur gloomy day.....a drop of tear can save the world......A penny can save u from hunger......wen the entire globe no longer rotating......wen there is no longer breath ......there is no longer oxygen......i duno wat m i writing...but tats wat im thinkin rite now...its sounds kinda perplexing.....nut it does make sense...wen u eva reach tat predicament where u face speechless state...unconscious state....this is the time where u gona suffocating in pain..u desperate for more.....for wat...u duno....u jz wan something...but u duno wat u want??????u r lost..u nid a hand to hold....u nid a shoulder to lean>REALLY?i saw her.....iM SADDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD...my heart cries....my tears rolling...but barely able to roll down to my cheeks.....she crumbles..but she nvr let herself tumble jz like tat....HOLD HER.....hold her tightly....she nid help.,....mentally...I RESPECT YOU....YOU ARE MY WOMAN....Salute......thousands Salutessss.....MIsss...u r in my heart....again thanks.ss....but till now ur student still cant find her way out...she doesnt noe her way..her path...she jz walk....run to the v end....where is the end?I duno....i will keep on running....everone can be as strong as iron....but how long can we be tat tenacious?walk into a dark room...u touch nothin,,u see nothin.....u hear nothin.....u taste nothin...u yell for nothin...u cryyyyyyyyyyyyyyy n cryyyyyyyyyyyyyyy...PLSSSSSSSSSS PLSSSSSSSSSSSS HELPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP HELPPPPPPPPPPP.....but in vain.....no one....NO ONEEEEEEEE......u sing to urself....u started to think ..think of wat?think of ur petite mum?think of ur handsome dad>?ur siblings?ur bf?ur hubby?ur mates?urself?FOR ME...I WILL KEEP ON CRYING...CRY TILL I HAV NO MORE TEARS....my tears have drained out....no more....can i hav more tears....???Look into my eyes...u can c tears rolling...all humanbeing they hv flaws....they are weak ....look into my eyes...

ya im kinda sad to hear that...

wat is life?how many ppl can define the real exact meaning of life?how many years they hav been thru in their whole life time?how old are you nw?go around and ask how old r them?wat they hav been thru......wat is LIFE?i hav been harping on the same old ques....WAT HAV U BEEN THRU?Careena wat hav u been thru?do i really cherish the ppl around me?My family members?my frenz?if i really diagnose with sum disease.....what m i goin to do the next few steps?wat m i goin to go in days to come?m i goin to jz waste my time jz like tat?for me now....if there is really tat occurrence,....I will do sth which i think its important....i will confront my love....saying I LOVE YOU...i will too confront those mates whom i dislike...telling them IM SORRY FRENZ.....I LOVE U GUYS....pls forgive me....duno wats in my mind.... .im now cant think of anything...jz empty....is tat i can do?im damn useles....today wen i saw her the frail look.....from far......tat v moment she was right infront of me.....she looks far more than i hav expected......she was once a very gorgeous lady to me.....now she is totally different......teacher can I gif u a hug?thanks for everything...i will do well in my course....i wont disheartened u....miss.....take care Miss.....thanks .THANKSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

yesterday....

yesterday i went clubbing with kar mun n her bf.....nt the right place for me...i dun really like it cz of the ppl there...i prefer Barbeza n Houz......she recommended me a guy.....i dun like this kind of guy...same goes to male fren.......he is wealthy...so?he is ambitious so?he is wateva lahh....non of my fuckin business.....i dun gif a damn.......i dun hv any feelings towards anyone thou..........they r .......HORRIBLE.....wateva lahh.....its better for me to focus more in my studies....how i hope one day i can hav my own design house,......my ideal house.....wau.........MAN?HAHAHAAHAH THEY ARE HORRIBLE....u cant find sumwan hu is trustable.....they seem to take women for granted...what u guys wan?SEX?LUST......................FUCK OFF.BYE TO MEN.....WOMEN.U NID TO STAND FOR URSELF...NOT DEPENDANT...BUT INDEPENDANT......LADIES.......

i finally got Shahanaaz Habib in facebook...happy lehh

i finally got my admirer......she is the one....she is well known notable reporter who represented Malaysia to Gaza .........n she was the one who had a conversation with Obama,,,.....she is really capable.....undescribable words......she is immanent....she is my goal......yea....but im still hesitating regarding her success...still wan to noe more....but of course prac makes perfect.....is hardly for me to noe her more...but at least i get a chance to get a bit closer to her....yESSSSS!

i noe we wont be bk 2gether.....miss him...

2day....or maybe these few years...everyday still missing him he is still in my mind...our memories still in my mind...hardly for me to forget him...dear....if there is IF...I WOULD CHOOSE TO HV U IN MY LIFE ......TO BE MY BACKUP AS WAT U SAID.....dear dear i miss u...how i hope i can hug u....massage u....now ?haahahha u already hav one now....the one hu alwiz be there for u....take care of u....tell u wat....im now not attached to anyone....they are not even my cup of tea......its difficult to find the one hu knows me well.....hu noes wat m i thinkin....too bad.....I dun think im tat bad...i would like to say im better than the other gurls....but no worries ...now i have my vision...my dreams.....i havent even achieved...no worries........i will prove to u i will move on.....move on in my carrier in future....we wont be meeting each other maybe foreva...maybe few years...but u r alwiz in me....Careena will nvr forget u......U R A MAN to me....hugging my baby bolster is like hugging u......everynite....feel like hugging u....hug u tight tight.....miss u so much,.....bless u ...ur carrier...ur gf....ur family....take care....Dear I LOVE YOU......thou u r now my ex....but ur special to me foreva.......LOVE U SO MUCH......