im alone...im all alone...

ladies are not as tough as what poeple think we are....I AM surfacely..but im lonely all times...no one noes ....actually a woman needs someone to love her..to care for her...to be by her side to pamper her at times...u can be weak by his side...but now he was no longer there...he is not there...i might be laughing..i might be smiling...but actually the smile doesnt make any sense to me...im alone....when can i truly forget him??when can i truly happy?when i truly be myself?i do not want anyone to hurt me anyone....its real hard for me to find sumwan whom i love...though i TRUST GOD that one day HE will grant me one...who is loyal and mature...who will be the one?when will he appear?when will be there for me each time i cry..each time i laugh..each time i nid sumwan to tok to...im alone...wat to do..life still need to go on..i still nid to stand up and work things out..i still nid to run out of this muddy pole...im a lady..im not a super duper lady....but anyway Careena will alwiz be tenacious...be sturdy,,,n be tough....but it seems today does not seem a good day to me...

wat love is?

looking up the ceiling...glaring here and there...started to wonder where m i!!!who m i???who m i to judge the meaning of love!!!love is that real?is that the existence of love?or izit jz an illusion???people might easily get entangled with love, but how do we get rid of it?to live a happy life, we hav to get rid of it.is alwiz easy to put in words but actionwise???speechless...human beings???i yet to forget him, i yet to love him less each day..but i do confirm one thing is he has already put me in a trashbin.but whta to say??what to express?I LOVE YOU....but imagine if oneday i do hav a bf, do I still able to throw him these three words..I LOVE YOU...love jz comes and go...what for saying these few words den...y not wait til its real only den we make these three words real...LOVE BREAKS MY HEART TREMENDOUSLY..im scared to be hurt again n again...

careena's blog

freaking happy... got an appreciation note form a customer 2day.... brighten my day n is a source of encouragement for me to work harder... Go Go go...!!!from beng soonMay 21 at 4:28pm
im happy to hear from u dear....though i noe i will no longer have the chance to cheer u up..but i will still be by ur side to tell u GO GO GO...u can DO IT...i noe in future u can be a successful person...dear do take care of urself k.....drink more water...try to sleep early...be a gud boy..loving you always...dear ahh....now i noe one thing is i hardly forget u..i hardly dump you in the trashbin...i noe u hav already trash me aside ....i hope one day i able to let go the time we have been together...the days we have been thru...the laughter we had together in cinema while we were watching Simpsons....dear i remember ur smile...ur fiery face ...ur baby face as well....dear dear...i noe u r now have a vv gud gf...hope u both will continue to love each other more each day....all i wish now is to c u everyday in FB...noe ur current situation....noeing tat u r doin wel.im pretty happy n glad with ur success....keep goin ya....keep working hard....n aim for the best....U CAN YEAAA....love you...love you

todai i finally cry

i hav a lot to study...i have lots...duno where to start with.....stresssssss.

stresssssssss.......

im stress.......im fucking stress....i have lots to do n yet im sick....im fucking sick recently,...i nid to hav a cigarette to boost my day but unfortunately i cant smoke tat much....fuck shit man....i have lots of things to do...i duno which one to start with fuckin shit man....oh gosh...GOD save me..im dead..my soul no longer been saved....shit......im tired...im tired,,..im fucking tired...

again down...

duno wen can i be invigorated?wen can i be charged wif energy?Careena Yeoh if u continue to be a dead corpse...its really useless n meaningless to live a life like this...its kinda disgruntled to c my life like this..its like a person sailing without direction....im disappointed....im sad...sumtimes jz feel like finding frenz to tok with but in vain...they r all pretty occupied...me too bz is jz tat im again restless....im not finding myself....im pretty restless...my energy is utterly depleted....CAN I CALL FOR HELP?CAN I JZ YELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL?oh my gosh...im pretty restless....again...n again.....open up my book...wat i c?wat i feel?i c nothin?i c sumthin?tat is ZZZZZzzzzz...i feel like sleepin...dozing off man....FUCK....fucking useless trash i m....

no mood

2day not in a gud mood...feel like dying....duno hu to tok to...feel like sleeping...feel like yelling......im restless....i hav ate this and that n yet still cant have a relief...duno wats in my mind....all i think now is I RESTLESS...if he is with me now....i believe i will be better..i miss my ex..everytime i miss him damn much...i miss him.....i feel like telling him...dear dear i no mood ahhh...can u come to me n hug me....can i msg u telling you i miss you.....dear ahh..these few days stress....tat internal implicit speechless stress is indeed unspeakable....unspeakable tension in me really makes me NO SMILE....happy?NO...feel like drinking till i can disgorge everything out from me....dear tell you what?i saw ur new profile picture in FB ahh...u r handsome...thumbs up for tat!keep it up..do hope u can take gud care of urself......take gud care of ur current gf........God bless ur carrier n ur family as well...love you everyday.....lov you