wat love is?

looking up the ceiling...glaring here and there...started to wonder where m i!!!who m i???who m i to judge the meaning of love!!!love is that real?is that the existence of love?or izit jz an illusion???people might easily get entangled with love, but how do we get rid of it?to live a happy life, we hav to get rid of it.is alwiz easy to put in words but actionwise???speechless...human beings???i yet to forget him, i yet to love him less each day..but i do confirm one thing is he has already put me in a trashbin.but whta to say??what to express?I LOVE YOU....but imagine if oneday i do hav a bf, do I still able to throw him these three words..I LOVE YOU...love jz comes and go...what for saying these few words den...y not wait til its real only den we make these three words real...LOVE BREAKS MY HEART TREMENDOUSLY..im scared to be hurt again n again...

careena's blog

freaking happy... got an appreciation note form a customer 2day.... brighten my day n is a source of encouragement for me to work harder... Go Go go...!!!from beng soonMay 21 at 4:28pm
im happy to hear from u dear....though i noe i will no longer have the chance to cheer u up..but i will still be by ur side to tell u GO GO GO...u can DO IT...i noe in future u can be a successful person...dear do take care of urself k.....drink more water...try to sleep early...be a gud boy..loving you always...dear ahh....now i noe one thing is i hardly forget u..i hardly dump you in the trashbin...i noe u hav already trash me aside ....i hope one day i able to let go the time we have been together...the days we have been thru...the laughter we had together in cinema while we were watching Simpsons....dear i remember ur smile...ur fiery face ...ur baby face as well....dear dear...i noe u r now have a vv gud gf...hope u both will continue to love each other more each day....all i wish now is to c u everyday in FB...noe ur current situation....noeing tat u r doin wel.im pretty happy n glad with ur success....keep goin ya....keep working hard....n aim for the best....U CAN YEAAA....love you...love you

todai i finally cry

i hav a lot to study...i have lots...duno where to start with.....stresssssss.

stresssssssss.......

im stress.......im fucking stress....i have lots to do n yet im sick....im fucking sick recently,...i nid to hav a cigarette to boost my day but unfortunately i cant smoke tat much....fuck shit man....i have lots of things to do...i duno which one to start with fuckin shit man....oh gosh...GOD save me..im dead..my soul no longer been saved....shit......im tired...im tired,,..im fucking tired...

again down...

duno wen can i be invigorated?wen can i be charged wif energy?Careena Yeoh if u continue to be a dead corpse...its really useless n meaningless to live a life like this...its kinda disgruntled to c my life like this..its like a person sailing without direction....im disappointed....im sad...sumtimes jz feel like finding frenz to tok with but in vain...they r all pretty occupied...me too bz is jz tat im again restless....im not finding myself....im pretty restless...my energy is utterly depleted....CAN I CALL FOR HELP?CAN I JZ YELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL?oh my gosh...im pretty restless....again...n again.....open up my book...wat i c?wat i feel?i c nothin?i c sumthin?tat is ZZZZZzzzzz...i feel like sleepin...dozing off man....FUCK....fucking useless trash i m....

no mood

2day not in a gud mood...feel like dying....duno hu to tok to...feel like sleeping...feel like yelling......im restless....i hav ate this and that n yet still cant have a relief...duno wats in my mind....all i think now is I RESTLESS...if he is with me now....i believe i will be better..i miss my ex..everytime i miss him damn much...i miss him.....i feel like telling him...dear dear i no mood ahhh...can u come to me n hug me....can i msg u telling you i miss you.....dear ahh..these few days stress....tat internal implicit speechless stress is indeed unspeakable....unspeakable tension in me really makes me NO SMILE....happy?NO...feel like drinking till i can disgorge everything out from me....dear tell you what?i saw ur new profile picture in FB ahh...u r handsome...thumbs up for tat!keep it up..do hope u can take gud care of urself......take gud care of ur current gf........God bless ur carrier n ur family as well...love you everyday.....lov you

u will nvr forget....

in these few weeks of holidays.....at home....u will start to think of him again...all these while he is there in ur mind...sometimes Karen did tell my sis saying that is hard to forget the guy....hard to let go him....wat to do?u have to forget him or else u urself will get more hurt everyday,...u r the victim....he is njoying himself....he has the other half...HOW ABOUT YOU?u still have to move on werd...CRY....PAIN...but hu noes?u learn from ur pain....u dry ur tears...u cry again...u dry ur tears .....dont u feel tired?YA I RELUCTANT TO LET HIM GO...BUT WAT TO DO?WAT CAN I DO?there were so many passers- by.......still u r not vigilant...still u r blur.....still u r unconscious....no Man on earth is good.....there r ???????hu can giv me an exact answer to describe them? How oain u r...u still have to move on cz U R LADY...;LADY OF DISTINCTION.....U CANT FALL..U REMEMBER WAT U HAVE PROMISE URSELF......CAREENA MOVE ON.....I NOE U STILL LOVE HIM BUT U STILL U HAVE TO MOVE ON...ALWIZ REMEMBER U R A SPECIAL ONE....Leave it to GOD.....